It's the beginning of October and we're hoping hard to get our referral this month. There were some last month and we're closer. But who knows what will happen. This month we have to start re-doing our home study before it expires. It would be great if we could be home from Ethiopia in February next year.

I remember feeling like that a year ago and thinking then that February was at the outset. December was still a possibility then. I really hope this February doesn't go by and we aren't home with our girl.

My lifeline on a bad day - it could be her birthday. On a regular day wondering if she has been born yet.